So, I did not set a New Year's Resolution this year. I didn't make any plans to lose 50ish pounds or read 24 new books. At a young adults Bible study, we discussed finding one word to focus on this year, one simple word to help summarize your focus for the New Year. I chose the word "Trust." Little did I know just how much I would grow this year by learning to focus on that one simple word, and the One I am giving my trust to!
My husband and I had a rocky 2013, and it was full of
learning to trust in God’s plan for us, that ultimately we would be okay. We
learned quickly how to adjust our family budget to a single income when I left
my job of 7 years; we decided it would be in our family’s best interest for me
to stay home with our young girls and also decided to sell the house that was a
constant vacuum on any attempt at having a Savings for our future. These things had me questioning God’s plan
for our family. I was upset that we
worked so hard only to have to throw so much away, when we had to sell our
house at a very great loss. During this
time I was consumed with worry and anxiety about our future. I knew after we sold our house our future was
completely unsettled. There is no
crystal ball to look into the future to tell me how much we needed to be able
to budget for me to continue to stay home with our children, or if leaving my
old job was truly the best decision for my future career path. It was through encouragement and a LOT of
prayer that I decided to stop focusing on what we didn’t or wouldn’t have and
focusing on what was most important… we were still a family, we were still all
together, and we had family and friends giving us support and words of
encouragement. When I stopped living
with the stress of worry and just gave it all over in prayer, things started
coming together for us. I’m not saying
God is a magic genie that was doling out wishes, but when I let go of how I
thought things should be and simply trusted things were going to be okay, it
turned out that… things were okay!
One of my favorite Bible verses is:
Matthew 6:31-34: “So, do not worry, saying, ‘What
will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’. For pagans run
after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his
righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for
tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of its own.”
I am working on seeking His plan first and I know everything
else will fall in line. So, we sold our
house and are currently living with family until we are ready to step out on
our own again. We were on the fence
between my going back to work, only to earn enough to save a hundred or two
after covering the girl’s daycare costs (two children under the age of 3 makes
for very expensive daycare bills), or my staying home to make sure our children
were getting the attention we value most.
Well, to make a long story short, it seemed every time I made a turn to
try to move forward with my plans, I fell on my face. Then I realized I was going on making my
plans again. Not that there is anything
wrong with having goals, but when I think my goals are the only options and I’m
not receptive to God’s plan, that is when obstacles seem to hit me the
hardest. I decided to focus on something
other than our future and focus on the here and now, focus on my health, which
I had been putting on the back burner for quite some time. That is when an amazing opportunity presented
itself, why not get healthy and become a Beachbody Coach? I could get healthy, help others reach goals
just like mine and be able to stay home with our girls! And there was the added bonus that I can be
paid to do something I am doing anyway!
So, I am taking a breath and saying “Lead me Lord!” I have never been an athlete, barely can say
I have been in a public gym, but I am going to get healthy and share what I am
learning along the way. Being a
Beachbody Coach is not a Get Rich Quick scheme, I am not expecting to make a
large paycheck right away, but I know the potential is there, it just depends
on me depending on Him! I can do
this! He will lead me if I trust in Him
and no matter the outcome, we will still be okay!
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